On Friday morning, we went in for a prenatal checkup. I’m 13 weeks along and everything was fine. We got to hear the baby’s rapid heartbeat, which to me, sounds like galloping horses. I texted my mom, “Baby’s fine and…
Pregnancy Letter: Week 4
Dear Baby, We found out we were pregnant with you on Friday September 13, 2013. Friday the 13th is an auspicious phenomenon in our family because mommy and daddy met each other for the first time on Friday February 13,…
What Can I Neglect Today?
Here’s an update on what’s been going on with me. I worked 12 days straight. On the 12th day I was in the office at 4:30am and worked a full day because my company reported its earnings for the quarter…
Two Angel Babies and One on the Way
I have been pregnant or miscarrying for the past eight months, and all that I have to show for it is a broken heart. As I’ve shared on my blog, I miscarried twice this year, making 2013 the unluckiest most…
The Miscarriage Rant
I lost two babies this year through miscarriage. It was horrifically painful and I’m still dealing with chronic anxiety. Imagine a recurrent dream where the boogey man is coming after your children. As if the actual deaths weren’t bad enough, I’ve…
On Fertility: It Takes a Village
It only takes 2 to tango, but there are so many collaborative musicians and choreographers in this dance called life. If you follow me on Twitter, you may have caught that I have been live tweeting from NYC and upstate…
Caring for Ourselves After a Miscarriage
Dean and I have spent the past few days resting and doing indulgent things we wouldn’t normally do. Here’s how we’ve been caring for ourselves after the miscarriage… Caring for Ourselves After a Miscarriage: Staying up until 1am. Sleeping in…
We Are Pregnant!
We are pregnant! We were pregnant. And then we were not. For the second time in only three months, I have miscarried another baby. Please God it’s not fair to fill your heaven with our little babies. You already have…
Amy at The Bloom-Print Project
Thanks for bearing with me as I wind down an intense period at work. I am counting down the hours until 5pm Friday! I am exhausted, sleep-deprived and desperately in need of a vacation. I want to introduce you to…
Where Were You When I Needed You?
I am still very bitter and very sad about my relationship with God. Honestly, when I think of God, he makes me cry. I don’t know whether I’m crying because I feel he’s a bad father, or whether I’m crying…