Thanks for bearing with me as I wind down an intense period at work. I am counting down the hours until 5pm Friday! I am exhausted, sleep-deprived and desperately in need of a vacation. I want to introduce you to…
Where Were You When I Needed You?
I am still very bitter and very sad about my relationship with God. Honestly, when I think of God, he makes me cry. I don’t know whether I’m crying because I feel he’s a bad father, or whether I’m crying…
I Got Pregnant and All I Got Was This Muffin Top
Me: I took down a lot of good notes here. Thank you for all of this. No raw meat or seafood, nothing unpasteurized. No deli meat, nitrates, or runny eggs. No sprouts. I’ve cut out the caffeine and the alcohol…
Helping Us Heal: How to Help After a Miscarriage
We were hanging out with friends this weekend and they mentioned first and foremost how sorry they were that we had miscarried. The tears started falling down my cheeks and Dean said, “She’s still taking it pretty hard.” Honestly, I…
Baby Steps
Today was especially hard. For some reason I got to thinking of Christmas, which was the approximate due date for the baby. Isn’t that fantastic? I now have both Mothers Day and Christmas to be melancholic. So I had a…
The Loss of a Baby
I wish I had one tangible thing to remember my baby: a monogrammed rattle, a lock of shiny black hair, a fleshy baby tooth. I wish there were a way I could go back in time and ask the doctor…
Mothers Day: A First, the Worst, and My Miracle Baby
I’ll never forget this year’s Mothers Day. I can’t imagine a year will go by, from now on, without me remembering it was the day I lost my miracle baby. My Miracle Baby After years of trying and struggling, Dean…
Prayers and Perseverance
First, a story. Late in 2011, I got snapped by camera running a red light on Geary in the Inner Richmond. I knew it almost immediately, soon after I hit the gas pedal on a yellow light, as a series…