We are pregnant!
We were pregnant.
And then we were not.
For the second time in only three months, I have miscarried another baby.
Please God it’s not fair to fill your heaven with our little babies. You already have one. Did you have to take another?
I am numb.
I am scared.
I am anxious.
I’m depressed.
I am mad.
I cannot sleep.
I cannot rest.
I want to give up.
I want to try.
I want to sleep.
I want to cry
I can feel my heart pounding against my chest. Why? Why? Why?
A thousand hugs to you, my friend. There is no way to stop this heartbreak, and I wish so much that there was.
Catherine,
So sorry to hear this news. Sending good thoughts and well wishes to you!
I am so sorry. My heart goes out to you.
Cathy, my heart aches for you and Dean. Sending you healing thoughts and warm wishes.
Catherine, I have no words and please know right now my heart truly goes out to you. I know how much you do want a little one and seriously feel absolutely terrible for you. You are definitely in my prayers and thoughts. Just know you are a good person and consider you a friend in the crazy, wonderful world of blogging. If you need anything, please feel free to message me.
I can’t even begin to imagine the pain you are going through. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong! God has a plan for everyone.
Oh dear Catherine, my heart breaks with yours. You are in my prayers for sure. Praying for your heart to heal as you grieve, and praying for your faith to increase as you process.
~ Ferly
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Catherine, I am so sorry! I can only imagine how difficult this must be. Sending you lots of hugs!
Dear Catherine, I send you peace and comfort. Words seem not to be big enough, but I offer you my thoughts and prayers.
I am so sorry friend! I know there is nothing I can say that can make this any easier just know you are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs!
I am so sorry. My brother and his wife have had many miscarriages and problems with fertility. It is so much more than simply being disappointed. I don’t know why it happens, and I never know what to say to them. My heart aches for every woman who has a hard time.
I can’t claim to know what you are going through, but I still want to offer you all of my support. I will be keeping you in my thoughts during this terrible time.
Oh I am so sorry Catherine! I can’t even begin to imagine how difficult this must be for you. Please know I am thinking of you. Sending you a virtual hug…you will be in my thoughts and prayers.
I’m so sorry dear. Ill be praying for peace, comfort and strength for you and your husband. It will happen.
My thoughts and prayers are with you through this trying time. Sending a virtual hug your way.
Catherine, I am so sorry to hear this. My heart hurts for you. my thoughts and prayers are with you guys.
I want to scream for you. I am so sorry for loss, and I wish I could offer you comfort. I wish your post had ended after the title. I pray that one day it will.
Catherine, I am so very sorry for your loss. Hugs.
Catherine my friend, I feel your pain, your sorrow. I’m so sorry for yor loss and all you’ve been through. Praying you find some peace and comfort today. A big squeeze to you and all my love. Sandra
Oh, Catherine. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I wish I was there so I could give you a hug and just sit with you. Please know you’re in my thoughts and prayers. –Lisa
I clicked over after you followed me on Twitter, and suddenly realized you are also a fellow sister-in-loss. I am so sorry- I’ve been there too. I wish you comfort during this awful time.
Glad to have found you, but not under such awful circumstances. Hugs to you.
I’m so sorry… This is so awful, and it’s heartbreaking that have to experience it a second time! Praying for you this morning…
My sweet Catherine! I am sorry for your 2nd time experiencing this just as the first. I will continue to pray for you and the family! Love ya girl!
Oh, Catherine, I don’t know what to say. I’m so sorry for your loss. I am hoping that, in some small way, this outpouring of support and concern brings you comfort.
found your blog through a link-up on another blog i happened to check today.
i know you don’t know me, i don’t know you… but i do know exactly how you’re feeling.
many hugs and prayers for peace.
I know this place. It is so hard. You are so brave to write about it here. I was never so brave. I hope that the words in these comments are lifting you up, and giving you strength to get through this period.
I am so so so sorry for your loss! I wish I had words of comfort, but I understand there are none. Praying for you tonight.
I am so sorry! I waited so long to have my son. I remember just longing to be a mom.
So sorry for your loss, Catherine. No one should have to experience this loss even once. Thinking of you.
Cathy,
So sorry you’re going through this again. Hugs and prayers to you and Dean.
As I read this, I was reminded of my friend Dave and his wife who experienced miscarriage after miscarriage. They thought they couldn’t have children naturally. While looking into invitro and other options, God blessed them with one son naturally and then another a couple of years later.
Yesterday I tweeted something that I believe with every fiber of my being; “Everything in life is all about timing.” Let go and let God! He knows what’s best.
I am so, so sorry to hear this. Sending my thoughts and prayers as someone who has gone through same. Take good care of yourself, rest and be assured that you will have your time filled with little ones.
So sorry to hear of your loss. I can’t imagine the pain you’re going through; but I’m confident that God has a plan for you. Breath. Take your time to grieve. And move forward as a family when you’re ready. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Catherine, I am so sorry you are going through this. I can’t imagine how hurtful this must feel. But I will share the experiences I’ve had with my clients. I become very close to the women whose nursery’s I design. Being a mom myself, we share a lot. I swear to you if I haven’t had at least 200 women in my years of experience tell me that they went through miscarriages as I was working on their first baby’s nursery. And even more crazy, at least 50 of them had me design for their 3rd, 4th, even a few 5th babies. I would never have believed it if I didn’t experience it. They went through so much to have their first, sometimes several years of trying. And then it was like they opened the flood gates. No one can predict your future or why this happens. But know that you are not alone. And the babies you are meant to have no matter when they come or where they come from will be the little people you are meant to spend your days with.
Oh Catherine… just sending hugs your way because words won’t do.
I am very, very sorry, I can imagine the pain you are going through. xo.