Addicted Aftermath

I thought the drama was over. Of course not. Nate has since texted and emailed.

The first communication was a text in the middle of the night:
I know this is weird, but how are you?

Emails followed.

nate to me:
hey
can you just tell me why you are so mad at me
i didn’t do anything to you

me to nate:
nate, what is wrong with you? seriously. i thought we were friends. friends who actually care about each other? do friendships mean anything to you? meli told me how you trashed me and said the most horrific things. no one has ever said mean-spirited things about me or treated me the way that you have. i am flabbergasted and hurt. why are you even contacting me? nate, you make me want to cry. what happened to you? i believed you to be an honest, solid person. i don’t believe that anymore. i’m sorry.

nate to me:
huh? meli said?
babe – what you did was inconceivable. you read my emails, violated my privacy, told lies to someone you had never met and made that person (a person you don’t even know) really unhappy. all i did was protect myself, anyone would, even you.if i did these things to you – what would you do? – honestly. if you thought we were friends, why didn’t you just talk to me? what i am asking is what caused you to do all this, why did you hate me enough to start all this in the first place? what is it that you think i did to you? i just don’t understand. i never lied to you
to answer your question friendships mean everything to me. i would never read my friends emails behind their backs. i would never try so hard to break up relationships of my friends. i would never be so mean to a friend. you tried so hard to hurt me. and you ask what is wrong with me? sometimes a mirror helps

me to nate:
nate, you were cheating on your girlfriend. hello? what is wrong with you. meli and i share close friends! then you lied and tried to deny it. then she skips town and you could care less about her. and you start hooking up with other people. i’m glad she’s not with you anymore. of course i wouldn’t want her to be with someone like you. a mirror helps? the only thing i lied about was my identity initially and then i came totally clean. you should come clean as well and just stop being the pathological liar that you are.

nate to me:
i know catherine. have you not cheated on your boyfriends? you don’t know her
CATHERINE: here is what I am asking
what did i do to YOU? to make you do all this to me
–also
why didn’t you just talk to me?
why are you mad at me
what did i do to YOU?
I DON’t GET IT

me to nate:
nate, no, i have not cheated on my boyfriends. i believe in commitment. if i didn’t, i wouldn’t be in a relationship to begin with! i didn’t say i know her. i said we have close mutual friends. that’s it. but i got to know her through a few phone conversations. do you want to know why, nate? do you want to fucking know why? I THINK YOU ARE A CHEATING ASSHOLE AND I DIDN’T THINK IT WAS FAIR THAT YOU WERE CHEATING ON YOUR GIRLFRIEND. am i the only weirdo girl who believes in honesty in this world? YOU ARE A LIAR. YOU LIE! it’s not fair. you don’t deserve to be with anyone. and if i have to be the one to tell someone the truth, then so be it. and maybe you will change your ways because of this. you lied to your girlfriend. you lied to me. you lie to everyone. why? so you can have someone to sleep with every single night of the week? nate, is that really worth it? have enough respect for yourself to learn from this and stop your betrayals. nate, i really really feel for you. i feel bad for you, i feel sorry for you, i think you’re disgusting. you act like everyone cheats like it’s no big deal. it is a big deal. you are sleeping with women and having unprotected sex. that’s a big deal! stop asking me all these questions like it is some big mystery. i did not fuck you over. you did it to yourself. you really did.

nate to me:
We need to talk catherine
I’m off to vegas
but when is good for you?
and i just want you to know
too
that i do like you