There are some things you will never forget in life. Like the regional spelling bee competition and the word you got wrong: ‘caliginous.’ The red flag waving. The bell sounding. That you will never get a chance as an 8th grader to compete in the Scripps National Spelling Bee. This was it. This was your moment. And you will never forget being wrong. Could I have studied harder? Could I have done something differently?
And like the regional spelling bee, I will never forget telling someone I was pregnant when I was not. I will never forget that I told someone’s girlfriend that her boyfriend had been cheating on her for the past three months. I will never forget doing everything that I could so she would believe me. She thought I was mad. She thought I was crazy. So I showed her everything. I opened up my truth. I didn’t do it so she could be spared–although that was the end result. I did it because it was unfair. It was unfair that some guy was in a committed relationship, cheating, and sleeping with many women. He was getting the best of both worlds. I didn’t think that was fair and I wouldn’t stand for it. So I told her.
That is my story. I thought I’d tell it as my end of 2008 story. Then New Year’s came and went. And I thought, ‘It’s over. The story is over, done, and stale. No need to tell it anymore. It’s a new year.’
Then she called. So I will tell the story. From beginning to end. Very soon. It will be my next post.