James and I are still talking although in a much more limited capacity. He called yesterday to say he misses and loves me, which was really nice to hear, and asked if he could still come to the party. I said yes, of course, and invited him for a final romp afterwards. 😉 But then we’re both on bread and water for awhile as far as I’m concerned.
Does he really seem to be that smitten with me, as you’ve said? It’s hard to see things when you’re the person inside the dodge ball circle. It almost seems like he’s trying to be in touch more now but I could be making that up in my head. Ah, love.
i never try to mislead my friends. i always try to be very honest with them. i honestly truly believe that james loves you and i see it in the way he interacts with you. it’s like nothing else is in the universe. just you. he is so focused.
but i agree the timing is all wrong. i laughed out loud about the post-party romp.
i’m drunk as i write this…maddeningly in a frenzy as i just saw pictures posted of the love of my life (the guy i have been obsessed with for the past three years) post pictures of him and his new ‘love.’ he actually titles her that in the pictures. i had no idea. i feel nauseous and jittery. my body is shaking. i wish we could take these obsessions and extract them from our thoughts so we wouldn’t have to worry and be sad ever again.
don’t know why we fight poverty and hunger and long-term illness. i swear this is worse.